I'm trying to hold on,
trying to keep myself alive,
trying to keep myself awake,
trying to make things right,
trying to show that I do worth something.
But things kinda messed up now.
I don't even have the motivation,
day by day eating is just for surviving,
sleepless night is something normal,
sleepy all day is just what I'm doing.
To say no one understand,
that's a big lie, my dear.
A lot of people is there,
waiting for you to open up,
being honest,
being naked with all your emotions.
But why can't you do it?
Even your mom already asked you,
"what's your problem?"
Why can't you just spill everything?
Just tell her and being honest?
Why does it so hard to tell them the truth?
Your emotions?
Honestly I don't even know if that's actually available.
I mean I do cry
I also get mad and jealous sometimes
But somehow it seems like I can't tell them how I feel honestly.
My mouth seems to be knitted so I can't talk.
honestly, I'm tired
